Newly Found

If you cannot move then I will carry you
If you cannot breathe I'll be the air
Only say my name to show me where you are
and I'll be there when no one else will stand

- 'Carry You' by Sleeperstar

I still think of you at night
While I beg the Lord to let me sleep
I pretend that I am all right
That you're leaving me

Wherever you go
I will always long for you
Wherever you are
I wish I was there
If you're running away do you want me to chase you
Tried to move on but I couldn't erase you
Wherever you go
I will always long for you

If I'm honest with myself
Let's say that we never stood a chance
Love don't walk away
You know how bad I need you now
I'll say it again

'Wherever You Go' by Sleeperstar

***
In addition to Ian Walsh, Sleeperstar is a band I newly discovered and whom I've been listening to all day long (although they've been around awhile). Amazing talents.

Dear dear Ian Walsh

Just pretend for a moment that I’m all you have
I say come on, just look around
He’s not so picture perfect in the end.
When I told you that I loved you,
From that moment on you’d always be casting shadows, casting shadows over me.

- 'Casting Shadows' by Ian Walsh

We go to a place where all the sound’s drowned out
She says I have nothing to worry about
I still don’t feel better when all is said and done
Because my mind is only on if I’m Melissa’s only one

- 'Melissa' by Ian Walsh

This moment came too soon
And my train is coming around, around, around
The more I think of you the more I think that I just won’t get on this time.

- 'Safe and Sound' by Ian Walsh

These things I'll Never Say

So close to midnight
Under the streetlights
Leaving behind what I don`t need

I`ve walked like a blind man
And my eyes are open
And you are the only place for me

Won't you hold on just for a while
Please don`t give up on me tonight

Coz I`m on my way
I chased the day
Yeah I`ll keep running all night

I just won't rest to catch my breath
I will run every red light

To get to you
No I will, get to you
No I will, get to you

I`ll chase past the tail lights

Head for the skyline

Hoping that, that won't change your faith

I see them appearing
The cracks in the pavement
Running I pray I`m not too late

Won't you hold on just for a while
Please
Please don`t give up on me tonight

Coz I`m on my way
I`ll chase the day
Yeah I`ll keep running all night

I just won't rest to catch my breath
I will run every red light

To get to you
No I will get to you
No I will get to you
I will

I`ll get to you
Just hold on a little longer
I`ll get to you
Oh just don`t give up on me
I will get to
I will get to you

Coz I`m on my way
I chased the day
Yeah I`ll keep running all night.

*** full credits to James Morrison.
***title credits to Avril Lavigne.

Lyrical Lies

An old man gave me a tip he said
"Don't waste your time with politics" he said
"Just chase skirts instead"
"Life is too short, and you're almost dead" he said
"I met a woman once, I gave her my best shot"
"But never did I talk and talk and talk"
"If I had her back, I'd be as real as my age"
"I so don't blame them, I wouldn't do the same"
"But I can blame them, I'd sing her this"

And you want to be dressed in poetry
But imagery doesn't fit
And you want resizing
But darling dear get a grip

And I think what I just wrote is going over my head
I'm stealing lines from myself
And what I said was never said
It's just a lyrical lie
Made up in my mind

And you want to be dressed in poetry
But imagery doesn't fit
And you want resizing
But darling dear get a grip

You're moving but not aware
You're drowsy without a care
Except keeping your whites behind your lids
And your lids are your best canvas
I can only imagine what you're painting, what you're painting
And your body on my mattress is proof
And your makeup on my pillow is proof
But do you think I am telling you the truth

It's just a lyrical lie
Made up in my mind

And you want to be dressed in poetry
But imagery doesn't fit
And you want resizing
But darling dear get a grip

And you want to be dressed in poetry
But imagery doesn't fit
And you want resizing
But darling dear get a grip

***full credits to Cute is What We Aim For.

Here is Gone

You and I got something
But it's all and then it's nothing to me
...
And I got my defenses
When it comes to your intentions for me
...
And we wake up in the breakdown
Of the things we never thought we could be
...

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all...

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

I am no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me
...
And I was not the answer so forget you ever thought it was me
...

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We've got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I won't tempt to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I don't need a fall out
Of all the past that's here between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone
And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can fear you falling

I know it's out there
...
I can feel you falling
I know it's out there
...
Somehow here is gone
I know it's out there
...
Somehow here is gone

***
John Rzeznik of the incomparable Goo Goo Dolls, will always have my love.

Juli di Bulan Juni

Ku buka mata
Kilau mentari
Kini cahyanya sedikit berbeda, karna ku berubah

Sudut pandangku:
Kini dunia tak lagi
Tempat yang keji, dimana hati
dingin dan beku

ada kala hati dan ketulusan
dimana seharusnya

Ku membiarkan
cinta bekerja
menyembuhkan hatiku
Ku membiarkan
mu menyentuhku
dengan ketulusanmu
Ku membiarkan
Dunia keji
Kini ku milikimu

Di Juni ini
Aku berjanji
kepada hati untuk tak lagi
merasa sedih

Ku membiarkan
Cinta bekerja
menyembuhkan hatiku
Ku membiarkan
mu menyentuhku
dengan ketulusanmu


***full credits to: Sarah Silaban. Possibly the greatest female artist in Indonesia.

Barely Breathing

Duncan Sheik puts it...so, so well.

I know what you're doing
I see it all too clear
I only taste the saline
When I kiss away your tears

You really had me going
Wishing on a star
The black holes that surround you
Are heavier by far

I believed in your confusion
So completely torn
Must have been that yesterday
Was the day that I was born

There's not much to examine
There's nothing left to hide
You really can't be serious
If you have to ask me why
I say goodbye

'Cause I am barely breathing
And I can't find the air
Don't know who I'm kidding
Imagining you care

And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
I don't suppose it's worth the price
It's worth the price, the price
That I would pay, yeah yeah, yeah

Everyone keeps asking
What's it all about?
I used to be so certain
Now I can't figure out

What is this attraction?
I only feel the pain
There's nothing left to reason
And only you to blame
Will it ever change?

...

I've come to find
I may never know
Your changing mind
Is it friend or foe?

I rise above or sink below
With every time
You come and go
Please don't come and go

...

Well, I know what you're doing
I see it all too clear

*lyrics to "Barely Breathing" by Duncan Sheik.

The Day I Lost My Voice

It's sure as the floor 'neath my toes and somehow not surprised
That I was superimposed somehow in this life
And if my friends and my foes would just drop me a line, it'd be nice

You see love is a drink that goes straight to my head
And time is a lover and I'm caught in her stare
And the sentiment there follows me straight to my bed through the night

I've got my life in a suitcase and ready to run, run, run away
I got no time 'cause I'm always trying to run, run, run away
'Cause everyday it feels like it's only a game
I've got my life in a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase, a suitcase

What could be an anchor here, with a storm on the rise
When you never meant to see so clear when smoke gets in your eyes
And the men in the moon never makes his replies understood

...
For a moment I was one man and the world made sense
And for a moment here this storm made no consequence

'Cause everyday it feels like it's only a game


*by the abominably talented, one and only, Copeland. (lyrics to "The Day I lost My Voice", also known as "the Suitcase Song.")

I can't wait for

States.

Turn around and walk away,
I know we can make it through, make it back to:
The town in the sky, we've waited our whole lives and now its time to begin...
Give it away don't forget we're all safe and now it's
Right in the end...

"The Town in The Sky" by States: Bryan Laurenson, Mindy White and Stephen Laurenson

Let You Go

And if somebody tells you
You're not enough
If somebody tells you
You're not good enough

If somebody tells you this,
It isn't just
Just, I'm burning out
And I'm calling all the bluffs

I don't wanna let you go
But the weather changes like your mind
And I don't wanna give you up
But I might this time
Hope the new grass you seek
Is greener than the greenest green
And if it's not, or if it is
I just hope you'll be
At peace

*by: the talented Bryce Avary who fronts and mans The Rocket Summer

You Have My Attention

Quiet now, your voice seems miles away
Yet somehow, I hear your song resound
A little bit softer each day
And from my tired heart, a little bit farther away

You have my attention
Like you’ve had all the while
Since that first day when you made my heart smile
With loving eyes and tired sighs that flow
You have my attention
Like a shout through an empty sanctuary
Speak but a whisper

by: Copeland

I can't wait to watch this band tomorrow. They ROCK and I can't believe they are breaking up. It's a sad tragedy - they have made a legacy.

Trying

Could you let down your hair
And be transparent for a while
Just a little while
See if you're human after all
Honesty is a hard attribute to find
When we all want to seem like we've got it all figured out
I may be the first to say that I don't have a clue
I don't have all the answers
And God I pretend like I do just
Trying to find my way
Trying to find my way the best that I know how

by: Lifehouse

If I am

"If I am" by Nine Days is my favourite song for all time. I love John Hampson's vocals...the way he weaves his lyrics...so flawless. I can't ever get tired of hearing this song.

My brother asked me one day while we were listening to it in the car - how I'd feel if a guy sang it to me. Right now I can't remember what I said in answer exactly, but I know that it's the message behind the song that'd truly pull me in.

I post the lyrics below so you'll understand why.

So you're standin on the ledge
It looks like you might fall
Its so far down
Or maybe you were thinkin about jumpin
Now you could have it all
If you learned a little patience
For though I cannot fly
I'm not content to crawl
So give me a little credit
Have in me a little faith
I wanna be with you forever
If tomorrow's not too late
But its always too late when you got nothin
So you say
You should never let the sun set on tomorrow
Before the sun rises today

If I am
Another waste of everything you dreamed of
I will let you down
If I am
Only here to watch you as you suffer
I will let you down

So you're walkin on the edge
And you wait your turn to fall
But you're so far gone
That you don't see the hands upheld to catch you
And you could find the fault
In the heart that you've been handed
For though you cannot fly
You're not content to crawl
And its always too late when you got nothin
So you say
But we should never let the sun set on tomorrow
Before the sun rises

If I am
Another waste of everything you hoped for
I will let you down
If I am
Only here to watch you as you suffer
I will let you down

So you're standin on the ledge
It looks like you might fall

If I am
Another waste of everything you dreamed of
I will let you down
If I am
Only here to watch you as you suffer
I will let you down

The answers we find
Are never what we had in mind
So we make it up as we go along
You don't talk of dreams
Well I won't mention tomorrow
And we won't make those promises that we can't keep

I will never leave you
I will not let you down
I will never leave you
I will not let you down

All the Love in the World

...
Take a breath, just take a seat, you're falling apart and tearing at the seams.

Heaven forbid you end up alone and don't know why
Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright

...
How much longer, how long can you wait, It's like you wanted to go and give yourself away.

*** "Heaven Forbid" by: The Fray